Saturday, June 16, 2018

No Sight....No Sound....No Voice...

           Earlier this week, Master remarked that he had been thinking about his whip....and me....with that evil grin of his.   I knew he was giving me time to wrap my head around...a whipping.  I love surprises...and Master is often full of surprises...but a warning about a harder play. day..whip or cane or punishment....always helps me to accept it better when I have had some time to anticipate it.  
            I was kneeling, naked, as He re-claimed every part of me.  I am then over his lap, for what, I hope is a long hand warm-up.  He finishes with his hand, but then I feel...soft leather. I can tell it must be the beaver tail...one of my favorites.  I had not seen it out, so it was a nice surprise.  After he is done with the leather...yes, always too soon, I suddenly feel cool wood.  I had not seen that out either...(he had put both of them under a cushion)....after a couple lighter taps, he starts in harder. I pop up my head and look back and give him "a look".  He says, it is maintenance for this week...those light spanks on Monday don't really count. We differ on this, but I am not exactly in a 'position' to argue. 
           After a break Master helps me to get up and on the spanking bench.  He secures my arms, and legs, and waist, but then decides to undo the waist one as it will be in the way.  He goes to get something  else....I am thinking whip...when he returns with a ball gag.  I have never been gagged....much less with a ball gag....I did not even know he had one and I must admit, a little worried that he chose this time to decide that I should be gagged.  After the gag is secure, he then holds up a pair of ear phones....I had not seen those either...yes I am positively going to start being more observant ....Next, I am told to close my eyes...a blindfold, now that we have used  before, not in a long time.  So, no vision, no hearing, no words (there was SOUND)....This is a big surprise, we have never even talked about this, and I was expecting a whipping....but I have to say, I am comfortable on the bench, and except for the ball gag filling my mouth, I am comfortable.
          The next thing I realize is the sting of the whip on my bottom, usually the whip lands on my back, so this is a new sensation.  He is using mostly just the tip of the whip, but they do sting, and I am being vocal...25 on my bottom. ( I was not counting, that never entered my muddled mind....Master later told me how many.) He then moves to my back, 25 stripes with the whip.  Once he stops, he rubs my bottom and back until I am once again relaxed.   
       A bit of a lull, and the the sting of the whip is replaced with the thud of the cane.  He is using mostly just the tip of the cane, once again 25 on my bottom, 25 on my back.  Another quick break and then I feel the swish of the flogger.....ahhh...I can relax.  Lots of swishing, and then again 25 with the flogger on my back.  Then, I feel his hands, rubbing and massaging, until I am totally relaxed...and decides it is time to see how the 'rest' of me is doing.   With just a little help, I am ready to cum...and cum ...and, well until I am saying no more please.   
     He removes the ear phones and I immediately hear his voice telling me how pleased he is with me, how well I did, while removing the gag and the blindfold. He asks if I am ready to move and when I am,  he helps me up and over to the sofa, and pulls me on his lap. He has a bottle of cold water and is telling me to drink. He holds me until I have recovered enough to talk. 
       My least favorite part was the gag.....I did not like the feel of it in my mouth...what I missed the most during it all was hearing his voice.  He is a talker, usually continually talking to me during our play times, his voice steadies me, encourages me, settles me.  It was very intense, sensory deprivation, something I had never experienced before.  I was never scared or worried, but it did reach what seemed like sensory overload , at times. Would I want to do it every week....no....would I do it again...yes!          Master's first words to me this morning were...have you landed yet?  Not totally, bottom and back are still tender, and I am still processing all of it. I slept really well and  I am thankful that a quiet Saturday is planned.   
hugs abby
          
            

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  1. The thing I hate about the gag ( I can't use a ball gag so we have an extra if need be...lol. I have an overbite, so bit gag or some homemade jobby for us), is the drool. LOL. B has done this to me as well. Though only twice. He has a pair of pink construction worker ear protectors (though they don't block out the sound as much as earplugs). I feel like Gazoo from the Flintstones with them on! lol

    I am not a huge fan of the cane on my back! Mind you I am not a huge fan of much on my back! I do believe last week I threatened to KICK him if he landed the Quirt on my back in the same manner again! LOL. Pretty sure he wished he had me gagged that day....and yes I 'paid' for that! Snort.

    I wish we had a bench to lean on. I am literally strung up from a ring bolt in the ceiling. It is a tad distracting! LOL. But other than that, I can totally relate to this post.

    I found when I couldn't hear my mind couldn't wander and the sensations were that much more intense. B is not a huge talker during a play session. Of course with all senses taken away every time any type of touch happens I jump through my skin! LOL. Also I sort of felt like I was underwater when I couldn't hear. lol

    I did love the complete loss of control felt during. Though a different type of loss of control. Sort of like flying or maybe falling? Or...well maybe you could describe it better! lol

    willie

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  2. Oh, phew thanks for you comment....I hesitated about posting this...yes...the drooling is the worse, this ball gag was made by Master...and the texture was weird..altho I had too much going on to think about it.. I quickly forgot about that. LOL at Gazoo! The only thing I love on my back is the flogger....I will say, for the most part, he goes a tad easier on my back....and I actually got extra swishes from the whip, for a 'smart' remark I made earlier in the day...the man never forgets.
    The spanking bench is amazing...it is comfortable, I feel 'safe' on it, I can be secured or not...and M loves that all parts of me are wide open...it is his best project ever!! Having to be strung from the ceiling would be so much more difficult for me. There is no place for one's mind to wander when all sensation is removed, so yes to much more intense...You describe it perfectly...we are sisters at heart..or at least at being submissive...thanks again for your comment hugs abby

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    1. Oh phew! Thanks for commenting back so quickly. After I posted this comment I was a tad nervous as it was a LOT about me. ( So sure the nervousness didn't come out with all thoses LOLs I put in ...LOL)...

      Being strung up is a bit daunting, not too mention everything is pulled tight ( upside very flattering! LOL). Last time B had me standing on something so he could reach all areas and he uses a spreader bar so I am 'open'. He just has to go searching for a few things! LMAO!!!

      A homemade gag eh? Did I mention we have a brand new one, never really been used? You are welcome to it!!!! And in the interest of TMI, B has used vet tape as a gag. Well at least it was pink. You know to go with the earphones. Makes me laugh really. Why pick pink when I can't see it anyway???? lol.

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  3. Hi Abby,

    Wow, your Master certainly is full of surprises! I'm really not sure I can handle a whip and I tend to start getting panicky if too many sense are taken away at the same time. My least favourite is definitely the gag too. Fortunately that has been extremely rare.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. I am never sure I can handle the whip....'play times' seem to run in cycles around here...we were in a little slump for a while...but things sure have picked up...hugs abby

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  4. Wow! Your fella sure stepped it up with this one. Very sexy, though. I appreciate your and Wilma's real world description of the ball gag, etc. I always think we get these Hollywood versions of how sexy things are supposed to work and feel - not always the case! Eric and I do love to play with eliminating some of my senses. It seems to just enhance all of the other areas. Great story Abby. Enjoy your weekend.
    Amy

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    1. We seem to go in cycles..it has been a bit of a slump lately...but no more!!! Life has lots to do with that...but we are enjoying this as long as we can...maybe eliminating all your senses is in your future...hugs abby

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  5. Hi, Abby,
    We've definitely never experimented with anything like sensory deprivation before. Interesting concept. Not sure I would or could go there, but I appreciate your willingness to share. The whip sounds very, very intense. Have a great weekend!
    --Baker

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    1. We have used a blindfold...but that was it....he surprised me...and if you are interested in trying a whip...I could mail you M's and say I was helping a friend...hugs abby

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  6. Since I teach an art class with sensory exploration, I love your descriptions of the sensations. I don’t know how I’d feel about the whip but I never thought I’d like the cane either.
    For me it needs to be a build up.... and never too hard! Lol I’m a wimp!

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    1. Given a choice, I would go with cane over whip...I do much better with a build up also...hugs abby

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  7. all that sensory deprivation would probably freak me out. so i think it would have to be discussed first. i'm not sure i could handle the "overload" of feeling.

    the gag is certainly a no for me. all that drool. urgh. to get around it BIKSS just tells me when he wants me quiet (shhhh, no sound little one) and i comply. way better option than a gag of any sort.

    I can't say he's a talker all the time. we have had spankings in silence.. so i suppose the earphones (on their own) wouldn't upset me all that much. just the combination of all three is mighty intimidating to me.

    you're brave. M is wonderfully creative, and you're a lucky one.

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    1. Comment high jack... lol. We are often not alone so I have trained myself to be quiet, aside from hissing and deep, sudden intakes of breath. Being gagged for me is more about loss of control than it is about remaining silent. If that makes sense? Much like being restrained with ropes is mote freeing than being commanded to stay still. B isn't a huge talker when it isn't a punishment so the sound deprivation you would think wouldn't matter HOWEVER, not hearing him breathe, switch implements and especially the swish of said implements is a whole other ballgame. You'd be surprised how much you mentally prepare for impact based on that alone! Honestly the not hearing probably makes me feel the most vulnerable of all the sensory deprivation described.... .okay Abby back to you. Lol

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    2. Open forum day on Abby's blog...what fun all are welcome any time!! We are lucky enough to often be just us....so my making noise is not an issue. In fact, when we first started, I was soooooo quiet...M did his best to get me to express what I was feeling...did you ever here the saying...be careful what you wish for....I am surprised the neighbors have not inquired. Being gagged for me is also more about loss of control....everything that he thinks of is about me not being in control....yes, I was very used to being in control of EVERYTHING when we first met. It is the not knowing what is coming next..or where it is landing...that is what makes me feel the most vulnerable. I met your comment and raise you one.
      hugs....

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    3. Lol...cant think of a comment, though I do have a question. What type of whip is it? Bull whip? Dressage? Um...running out of knowledge of whip names.. Lol.B has a whip, he was practicing on an ironing board with a hand towel pinned down the middle , with a belt down the middle of that. Apparently I am as wide as a hand towel, and the belt was my spine! Oh the board was closed and leaning against a wall...lol..

      There you go Amy, more real life 'glam' for ya.lol

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    4. lol hijack away. actually i quite enjoy complete silence but until we actually shut off the hearing aspect i probably cant say for certain, that's true. but i don't think it would affect me as much as regular people. sounds are probably one of the most agitating stimuli for me personally.

      the gag thing lol. i suppose different strokes then. being told to be quiet is probably one of the most "loss of control" things i've experienced. Perhaps because my voice is my power. And having him "take it away" just be commanding it is the ultimate submission for me.

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    5. Hey Fondles,

      I understand your line of thinking with the loss of control because you were told to be quiet. This may come as a bit of a shock....I am a tad VERBOSE. LMAO. I think maybe we are looking at different types of control here.

      In this instance, it is control being taken away from me, which leads to a sort of freedom. Being told to not speak or move still puts a different type of control in my court. I have to concentrate to control my actions. When gagged ( even though more symbolic in a way because you can still make guttural sounds) or being restrained takes away my ability to speak or move, but moreover it removes the mental necessity to concentrate on controlling my actions. This is extremely freeing for me as my mind is generally going a million miles a minute, so if I am engaging it to make sure I don't speak or move, other thoughts can and do manage to weasel their way in.

      Ideally I should be focusing on what he wants, and at times that is an exercise in submission for me, to not speak or moreover not move, and it definitely gets him going watching me struggle with those things, but the truth is in my case, I have to employ a different type of control over myself to do so. ( Sorry Abby for the run on sentence or comma splice or whatever you English teachers refer to that one sentence paragraph as! LOL)

      willie

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    6. Ladies...I am loving this exchange...willie, it is a bull whip...large and intimidating ....M also practiced ...on a pillow..no comment an what that says on my size...and no belt. He often will use just the tip of it all over me....the sting is not my favorite sensation...now that is an understatement.
      And..I share your 'verboseness'...which is probably not a big surprise to anyone who reads here....the gag did allow me not to worry about that...and I could moan and groan as loud as I like...guess there is a plus to every thing. LOL...I threw out all my red editing pens when I retired...my first love was Social Studies, I switched to English, to help a friend out..sort of long story. But I am impressed that you recognize a run-on sentence..I am very guilty of those..so no penalty for you...hugs abby

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    7. Well Abby, if we ever have that coveted cup of coffee together, you'll see/hear that I write like a talk. In RUN ON SENTENCES...lol. Perhaps B should have his hearing taken away! lol.

      I have enjoyed thinking about the types of control and loss thereof as well this weekend. Time for you to come up with some other thought provoking posts! (no pressure).

      willie

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  8. Wow, Abby! ... just when you/we thought you'd seen and done it all, your M pulls a few tricks and treats out of the toy bag! ... thanks for sharing! ... nj ... xx

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    1. Yes, He is very creative and always surprising me...he will regularly ask me if I am bored yet....I always have the same answer...hugs abby

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  9. Abby, I was glued to each word as I was reading your post and all the discussion following. I would be petrified of a ball gag. I once read a book that contained such a thing, and it frightened me greatly. The whip sounds interesting, though. And I do love the sound of Sam's voice.

    You Always Give Me Much to Think About,
    Ella

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  10. I laughed out loud that you are terrified of a ball gag, but the whip sounds interesting. Honestly tho..I would not recommend a ball gag...it was not scary but taste lousy, kept me from 'losing myself' and there is the drool. I like the idea of a gag in general...you can be as loud as you want. As for the whip. takes practice on the part of the whipper and lots of trust (which you have) on the whippee...it is M's favorite thing in his bag...
    hugs abby

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  11. This is amazing, and that's just the comments. No, really abby I am loving this. It is brilliant how your Master can still throw surprises at you like this. There is something about sensory deprivation that I both love and hate. I hate the lack of communication on both sides, but also love the opportunity to be made to shut off my brain. I probably need some of this right now. Looking forward to reading much more of your Master's plans for you. Plus, glad to be back communicating with you xxx

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  12. Sooo good to hear from you :).....it was a first for us...and it was wonderful that I really had not control, could not even anticipate what would happen next. My 'voices' were all silent...hugs abby

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