More answers.... to Minelle's and Cat's questions...

        Minelle asks....Have you laughed at some of your earlier thoughts, boundaries or beliefs?  
           I have....not as much as Master has, but i have.  I discovered this part of me...or maybe let it out.....late in life. My kids were all in college, I was well into my career, and was pretty much settled in.  When i met Master, my thought was.....I will let Him spank me once...and then i will be done thinking and fantasizing about such things for good.  Oh, i so had no idea that i was about to start a journey that would continue to surprise me.
Then He wanted me to call Him...Sir.  Sir?....the only time i used Sir was when an older man held a door open for me and i thanked him.  Certainly not for someone i was going to be in a relationship with...
          Maybe the biggest area where i was wrong...happily ....was sexually. I had been convinced, that i was not a sexual person, that i was incapable of having an orgasm, that i was not desirable.....it took a long time and lots of patience, but Master certainly changed all that...and at about the time that i am asking for a third permission...we both laugh at the thought that orgasms were not possible for me.   
            Honestly, i could probably list most of the things Master and i have done as things that i was positive i would never agree to...let alone enjoy.
Luckily, i met just the man who had the patience to hang in there with me and prove me wrong.
Thanks for an interesting question...
          
                  Cat questioned the use of a larger paddle for a maintenance session.  Would that not make it discipline?
                    There is a paddle that Master just about always uses for maintenance, it is smallish, not light, but not heavy.  Maintenance is described by Master as a spanking that is hard enough to prevent me from even thinking that a discipline or punishment spanking might be something i would want to happen.  A couple weeks ago Master used a larger paddle for maintenance....it was a surprise, but it was not Master's largest paddle.  Master has quite a collection of paddles...more that any one person should have, in my opinion. He loves His paddles.  The punishment one is a very large paddle ball paddle that He bought at a garage sale, of all places, for one dollar.  I have offered before, and the offer still stands, I will pay ten times that...and the postage to mail it...if anyone wants to see it (and keep it) for themselves.  In case anyone is wondering...it has been well over a year since the last punishment spanking...and i hope i have not just jinxed myself! 
Thanks Cat.