Are you ready for this spanking to be done??

   Master loves asking that question, and of course there is no 1 good answer.  He doesn't ask during the warm up phase, or when He has a flogger in His hand...no it is when there is a paddle in His hand, and I have reached the 'ouchie' stage. Master read someplace a while ago...it is only when the spankee is ready for the spanking to stop...that the true spanking begins....He loves that...me , not so much.

     Either answer the spanking continues, and if He senses I am trying for an early end...moi?? never!.....it REALLY continues.  Yesterday, this question led to a discussion about the fact that i have not yet cried only form a spanking...I have cried, but the tears are pure release...after mind bogging orgasms.  Master thinks it is because He has never spanked me to the point where I cannot take even one more..and that might be true. I think, maybe, it is that it has been a long time since a major Punishment, one that occurs in the basement, He is holding a large heavy paddle, and my bottom is truly bruised. That has happened, but it was back when I was still testing the 'trust' waters. Master worked hard at gaining my trust and tearing down the citadel like walls i had spent a long time building....so no matter how much it hurt....i would not give in to tears.  Now, things are different, and i am free of most of those walls, and trust Him like i have no other. It used to bother me that i had not cried from a spanking, but i am OK with it now, sometimes i think it would be a nice release, but the tears come when they want to, and that is OK, because at least now, i allow them to come.  (WOW, this is not where I planned for this to go....)

   ...Here in Western NY, one is never certain what season it will be when you step outside, the past couple of mornings it has been fall like, which I love. So, i have started walking....Master wants me to increase the rate and is not so worried about how long, I prefer a long stroll...LOL. But I have pushed myself...Master sent me a text this morning.....FASTER...and it does feel good. 

.....One of my rules is that i do a daily task for Master. It's been a rule for a long time.  For the past...maybe few years, i have been doing some "kneeling in position" time. Master asked me about it...asking if i had it mastered, yet??  I took the hint, and thinking about it realized it had become....routine, kneel, get in position, quickly think about Master, then plan my day...not quite what He had in mind.  So, over the weekend, i decided i should vary the task, Master approved and suggested that i lay over pillows with just my bottom uncovered, thinking about my bottom getting spanked, for starters.  I started on Sunday, and had to text to ask for a permission....LOL!  I was going to change task every day, Master suggested i keep the same one for a week, so that is my task for this week, and it is surprising the different 'head space', it creates...more like when the tasks first started. 

hugs abby