Oh...life! It has been in full force the last couple of weeks...some of it good, some funny, and some producing more gray hairs! There was a camping trip to celebrate a 6 year old birthday, we had a great first day, sunny with a breeze, time at the beach, a cook-out, games and a nature hike. Day two we were just thinking about starting breakfast...and there was a tornado warning, luckily we had rented one of the primitive cabins, but still....We ended up with heavy rain and winds, but it sure did add some excitement. And....family drama was back, which always me want to run and hide. Grown kids, sometimes you wish you could just send them to their own corners til they learn to behave.
Master was trying to help me cope and stay calm, I will admit not always easy to achieve. This past Monday we were able to get back to us. Since it was Monday it was maintenance...with one to make up. I struggled through the first 100, it had been a couple weeks without a hard spanking. I did get a 'break'...Master style, on my knees, after each 50. After the first 100, I was able to 'settle' in more and accept the spanks without as much wriggling and loud protests.
Master then tells me we have another issue to discuss. I have learned to not try and guess what He is thinking in such situations so I just stayed quiet. Master has several 'truisms' that He likes to use.....one of the first that He introduced me to, years ago is..."don't run away from me, run to me". I used to hear it a lot, I was used to dealing with everything on my own, and it look me a while to trust that He meant it...good or bad...we get through it together.
Master asks me what direction I had been running in for the past week.....I had to admit, not towards him. I had gone into my 'quiet, I need to handle this on my own' mode. Master had given me opportunities, but I did not take advantage of them......forgetting we are a team. Master tells me to present my bottom for 24 with the cane. I say...that is a lot! He agrees and adds...maybe it will help you to remember what direction to run in...toward me! I thought we had solved this issue a while ago. I had to admit, so did I and that I had reverted to my 'I can handle it on my own' mode. And burdens, problems, drama, are so much easier to get through when they are shared.
My son and family...5 and 7 year old grands...are on their way to grandma's for a week. So I probably will not be around much..wishing you all a sparkly, sun-shiny, fun fourth of July....and to all the non-USA readers...hope you have sun-shine and fun also!