Will i ever get to the point where i can ask, and not have it be a big deal.....You know Nike's "Just Do It" campaign...i need a just "Just Ask It", campaign. I woke up the other day, feeling like i wanted....no needed....to feel Master's dominance. But it was also a day when i knew He had lots on His plate already, so i just sent my regular "good morning"...we chatted a bit, and i got out of bed. We were in contact all day, but i did not mention anything. By the next day, i had gone into my 'quiet mode'.
As soon as i get my 'welcome' hug, Master wants to know what is happening...problems at home, not feeling well, something with us?? I tell Him i was just feeling needy....for no particular reason...and almost asked for an extra task or something, and just talked myself out of it. I know, in my head, that asking is not demanding...and the answer is His choice. He has so rarely said no to me when i ask, i cannot remember the last time He did. He is shaking His head....tells me again that asking pleases Him. "Master may i have a hard spanking today"...is music to His ears. Asking for an extra task, keeps Him smiling all day. He then says... You know , i almost gave you an hourly task knowing that i would be busy all day....we were on same wave length, you just needed to speak up....to ask.
It is maintenance day, so i am told to kneel and think about our chat. Master's hands are covering my eyes, my ears...closing out everything but us. He claims me before He invites me over His lap. After a hand warm-up, He switches to the maintenance paddle. It hurts, even tho He is not spanking hard. He knows i am struggling, tells me my head is still not where it should be. He spanks a little harder telling me, this is not maintenance...it is a 'looking for my submissive' spanking, since she seems to have lost herself. Let me know where you are found...and i have her back. The spanks get a little harder and after a few set, i tell Him that i am back...Sir.
Now, maintenance starts. Maintenance is usually a couple sets with a break in between. This first set seems to last forever, and it is hard. When He stops , i am thinking, another set to go, when i hear Him ask, are you pleased that maintenance is over? It takes me a bit to answer, as i am wondering if i heard correctly. He chuckles and says....you are debating? I tell Him no, i am glad it is over, i just thought it was a trick question. He laughs and says...well the paddling part is over.
He has me stand, He reaches and stats unbuckling His belt. Ah.....on a well warmed bottom....i am smiling. I am told to get into position, i will get 2 sets of 12. Yummy....I do love that belt...OK...any belt that is Master's! When He is done, i am told to stay in position, as He leans into me from behind. I am dripping, and Master takes advantage of that.....and permissions are soon granted. I am reminded that asking pleases Him, that He expects me to let Him know when i need Him...for whatever reason....reading my mind can be an 'iffy' thing.
*****the weather here is still brutal. The average temperature for February ...12 degrees...broke a 100 year record. We have had the most days with a below zero reading, over 4 feet of snow, just this moonth, and no temps above freezing in way over a month. I know we are not alone, and some of you have more snow...but good grief.....please let Spring be early....
*****I also got that wonderful letter from blogger. I feel my blog is fairly tame, and i don't post pics....but just in case, i am thinking it is time to back everything up. Is there anyone who can give me an easy way to do that...thanks!!