Well Monday finally came....and so did i...wow...did i ever!!!
As i was laying in His arms, trying to breathe, not able to move a muscle, wondering who this person is that just exploded.... Master starts to chat. I am trying to focus, He is telling me the title of this post...that i am no longer 'finding me'. I have found the sexual me, the submissive me, the me that completes me, and best of all....i have someone in my life who accepts all of me...and loves being on this journey with me. So, i am no longer trying to find me....i am now exploring me. The discoveries so far have been amazing!
Today being Monday....means maintenance spanking. As always, we start off with my naked kneeling. Master and i are discussing yesterday, how it made me feel, how wet i was, how badly i wanted to cum and how surprised i was to not get a permission...and have to wait until today. Before i can climb up on His lap, Master decided He wants to see how wet i can get.....by sucking His cock. Another no brainer....
Finally i am invited over His lap, instead of His hand, i feel His maintenance paddle....i ask about a warm up....He says enjoy it this is it. After a couple sets, He does switch to His hand, and some roaming, and rubbing....and spanks. I am squirming and enjoying, Master feels the need to remind me that i do not have a permission, yet. He returns to the paddle, for the 'real' spanking. He reminds me the 'real' spanking does not start until i am wishing my spanking would end. I inform Him i am at that point....so He increases the speed and and strength ....i find my voice, am ouching, saying 'enough', just wanting it to end...and finally it does.
He checks to see how wet i am...and wants me as wet as i was last night before bed, so He lets His fingers work His magic. When He thinks i am wet enough, i hear......kneel and suck my cock again. Not what i was expecting...but i quickly get into position. When He feels ready, He has me get on all fours, head down, bottom up.....He enters me from behind, and it takes very little time before i am begging for a permission....and i am off....finally....maybe 3 or 4.....until i collapse....and Master is next to me holding me, helping me to return to reality.
I am almost back, when Master decides to use His fingers to see i i have anything left....i do....an am soon begging for more, until i finally say ...no more, please......He tucks me into Him, lets me recover.
It is a rainy dreary day here....but neither one of us cared, it was a wonderful way to spend such an afternoon.
Later, as i am getting dressed Master mentions that He found a vibrator on line that is blue tooth ready, it is controlled by phone.....i know i need to be careful what i say...so i simply say....what will they think of next??