Family, weather and the flu combined to prevent Master from giving me my first spanking of the new year until today. As much as i hate to admit it, i sure did need it!
One of my goals for the new year, is to make myself more open and vulnerable to Him....to go to Him with some things that i have been hanging on to, to let Him know when i am feeling needy, to ask (at least some of the time), for what it is i feel i need. I started off on the right foot, last week, i could feel myself sinking into that.....He could do so much better...frame of mind. Instead of allowing the thought to fester, i sent Master a text, asking if He could give me an extra task for that night. His reply was yes, but He needed to think about what task. The reply caused me to wonder if i had made a mistake. Master is very good at spur of the moment decisions, He is creative and usually reacts quickly. I was a little worried that His wanting to think meant trouble for me.
The task was to clip both my ankle and wrists cuffs when i went to bed. I wear the wrist cuffs every nite, they are leather, i love the smell, there is a soft lamb's wool layer on the inside, and i love having that reminder of being His when i wake up at night. I do not clip them together. Occasionally, Master will tell me to clip either the wrist or the ankle ones, but had never wanted me to clip both. He added that i should keep them clipped for as long as i could....i was to get some sleep.
I was a little worried about getting comfy.....but the ankle ones have enough 'give', and i sleep on my side, so it was not a major problem. Until i tried to turn over to the other side....impossible! I am a very restless sleeper, the sheets and blankets are all over the place by morning. So i did try to just relax and stay in place. I succeeded until it was 'potty time'. I unclipped the cuffs and left them that way. When Master asked in the morning how i had done...He was pleased with my report. That extra task did help me over the next couple days.
Today was the first M/M day of 2014. It was also my first weigh in 3 weeks.....good news i am only 1 pound over my goal.....i get 2 pounds of wriggle room! After my naked kneeling and claiming time, i started to rise to go over Master 's lap. He stopped me and told me to stay kneeling and make myself comfortable.....He was in the mood for me to have a long session with His cock. I started off slowly, concentrating on giving Master many different sensations. After a while, i was told to put my hands behind me, and not use them. He directed me to His balls, and after i had given each of them some attention, He had me try to suck them both at once....it was more that a mouthful! Then i went back to His cock.....it was the perfect way to get me totally immersed in a submissive mind set.
Then it was over His lap, for my maintenance spanking. No hand warm up today.....but He did start slowly with the paddle. I was having a bit of a problem settling in.....so He started to talk and spank not quite so hard. I was able to relax, and Master's frequent checks to see of i was truly enjoying, were met with approval. Master reminded me that cumming without permission would not be a good thing, reminding me to breathe and relax. Master then went back to paddling, and told me to let Him know when i wanted maintenance to start...AKA as the real spanking. I decided to just enjoy the paddling and lay there....and Master continued to paddle my bottom. I finally decided that i needed to be ready for maintenance...told Master He could start maintenance....and He puts the paddle down and says He is not ready. I burst into a laugh.....He asks who is in charge.....once i settle down...He tucks me in and really lets the paddle fly. When i reach the point of voicing my pain, He concentrates on one spot for 10 spanks, then another spot.....just to really make His point. Finally He is done, and asks if i think i am ready to cum for Him. I have been ready since i was sucking on His cock....so it does not take long...and i am grunting and growling and squirting. Finally i lay spent.....so relaxed and content.
Master asks if i want to go to my favorite spot...being cuddled in His lap. He does not have to ask twice. We snuggle, and hug, and chat a little...mostly we just enjoy each other.
It is going to be below zero here tomorrow...most of the schools have already cancelled. Hope you all are staying warm and safe.