After hugs and getting permissions for some Christmas events that are coming up, it was naked kneeling time. Master was
I start to cross my ankles, quickly pull them apart, but Master smacks my thighs as a reminder. I tell Him that all of you out there, agree with me that it is just a natural reflex (you will back me up on this....right?). He laughs...then says he agrees.....but it looks like i am trying to keep Him out, to not be totally available to Him. He adds, He wants me to be mindful of what He wants..and reminds me that submission should not always be easy.
As He starts with a wonderful hand warm up, Master tells me that He has a new rule for me. Now, i know that my rules have been good for me, they help to keep us connected, help me to remember that i am His. I take a deep breath, and say.....what would that be Master? He says that since i have finally paid off my credit card, i now need permission to not pay off the balance each month. Hmm, i am thinking, this is not a good month to start this rule...i have been Christmas shopping, and it so hard not to overdo a bit for the 4 little ones. So i quickly add, OK, starting the new year, i will pay off the balance monthly. He does not buy it....starts now. He continues, I know life can throw you a curve ball...but unless there is a compelling excuse His answer will be NO! I did not bother to ask what the punishment would be....no doubt something i would not want repeated. I sigh as i wave good-bye to more control...
Master asks if i had enough of a warm-up. I honestly answer no Sir. He chuckles, and continues with His hand, but He is concentrating on 1 spot, and adding power to each spank.
Without asking, He announces that warm-up is over, and out comes the paddle. From the beginning, i am being very vocal...repeating a loud OUCH after each slap...they did hurt! I am kicking my legs, and trying to move, and just keep saying OUCH. Master finally stops...and congratulates me....on finally opening up myself enough to let it out....to be vocal and let Him know He is having an effect. I tell Him it was the safest thing i could think to let come out of my mouth...and He says.....a 4 letter word I approve of! (actually i was thinking more along the lines of stop, or that is enough, or no more...those only have the opposite effect of what i want.
Master finds me very wet....for all the noise i was making, a part of me seemed to be really enjoying it. I assure Him, i was not....' that part of me is just a traitor. He continues to use His magic fingers to get me to the point of needing a permission. He picks up the paddle again...but continues with His fingers.....pain or pleasure which will win out. I reach that place where i am about to go off the edge....i get a permission...and i am off, several times. I am laying there, spent, trying to breathe again.
Master reminds me of my new rule...and we have some quiet time. Looks like we will have a very white Thanksgiving here....I am trying to decide when is the best time to travel, we seem to be right in the storm's path. Master says I can make last minute plans, with no permission, He wants to know when i leave and when i get there. Happy eating all!