I am back after spending a fun week with 3 of my grands....it was so much fun listening to the 4 and 5 year old cousins chatting like they were 12! There was a preK graduation, an oh so cute dance recital, and lots of backyard fun!
I was saddened to hear about Emily, and have joined all of you in prayers and as much good karma as i can send....
As most of you know, Mondays are M/M days...so yesterday was maintenance day. Since i had been away for a week, we started with lots of hugs and some catch-up chatting. Then, I was naked and kneeling, being re-claimed by my Master, closing out everyone and every thing else, just Us. Then i was invited to my favorite place ....over Master's lap. A wonderful welcome back hand spanking, that had me so relaxed, and yet ....so "wet". Master reminded me that maintenance came before i could come....so..
The paddle was retrieved and applied to my bottom. Each set a little harder, til He tucks me in, and lets it fly. He stops and asks me if it is enough for this week, i reply as i always do..it is.
One of these i will have to surprise Him and say no..not enough...and see His reaction. Although i am sure once He realizes what i have said, it will be more than enough.
Master was wondering how long we have been doing maintenance, so He gave me the task of finding the day....We had been discussing the fact that 'basement visits'...major punishments...have become a rare thing. Also that, for the first time ever, i have been successful in maintaining my goal weight, without having to go back and re-loose some. Master attributes most of that to maintenance...
My first maintenance spanking was on April 10, 2010...over three years ago. It was one of those times when i was feeling a little antsy, loss, needy, and trying to figure out why that was the case. I was reading blogs the night before, when i read one that mirrored my feelings ( it is no longer active), and i sat there and was astounded...she was 'voicing' my thoughts. I asked for permission, to send some of her thoughts to my Master, received it, and the next morning chose parts of the blog, and sent it to Master. Of course as soon as i hit the send button, i wished i could retrieve it, and undo what i had done. It was a long morning...
Master called me and told me to meet Him that afternoon, i was a little apprehensive, trying to judge His mood. His first words to me....."I think maintenance is a great idea...we are starting today". I immediately started to say it wasn't necessary, but was shushed and spanked..actually i was switched...talk about jumping right in. Master explained that maintenance would be weekly,,,which i am ashamed to admit...i wondered for how long. It has been over three years, and unless one of us was away for the week.....it has been every week.
Maintenance not only helps to keep me on the 'straight and narrow', it also served to deepen my submission. To allow me to stop ( most of the time), the over thinking, the voices, that would often lead me to doubt, to question. Master and i agree that our journey has been so much more that either of us expected, that we have grown in so many ways, that we are so lucky....and maintenance has been a part of making that happen.
Thank you Master for knowing, even in 2110, what i needed....and even more...for Your commitment to making it happen