We just had a week of sunshine and warmth, for these parts that is truly a gift. I have managed a walk outside every day, going a little further each day.
I was thinking on my walk yesterday about Master...no surprise there! I was thinking about how He manages to slip in His control when I am least expecting it. Maybe I am noticing it more lately because our active play has been so curtailed. Some examples of what I am talking about...
....While i was over His lap last week and we were discussing my health...and the next steps that will occur, He suddenly says, I want you to discuss any decisions with me before you make them. Do not just automatically agree to whatever the doctor suggests. I looked at Him, and He said," I mean it". I was in a state of ...what did He just say....but I said, Yes Sir. I never expected Him to extend his dominance in that way, not sure why I did not, but I did not. Later, while I was thinking about it...I realized
......had this happened 30 or 20 or even 10 years ago my response would have been so different. Something along the lines........Have you not heard, my body , my choices! I get to decide...and so on. What has changed me so much...well meeting Master and traveling the road that has shaped our relationship for one thing, of course. But is is more, it is that I so trust Him, I know, He wants to care for and protect me, that all of His decisions are based on what is best for me...for Us.
Another example, was last week. Master and I met for breakfast. We went to a diner type place. I ordered french toast, He ordered eggs, bacon, home fries, toast. The waitress was re-filling our drinks and returned to put some syrup on the table, Master asked if they had sugar free, and she went to get it, replacing the one on the table. At the time I thought...good for Master, for health reasons, He has to watch His sugar intake, so I was happy to see He was doing that. Then our meals are delivered and it suddenly dawned on me.....He had nothing on His plate that required syrup, I had french toast. At that moment I looked up at Him, He kind of chuckled and asked if I had ever tried the sugar free...I had, and said it wasn't bad and He added...better for you.
...again back when, I probably would have nicely asked the waitress to return the regular syrup, since that was my choice. Now, I smile and think, it is nice having someone to look out for me.
I have not been sleeping all that well. Last night Master told me to click my ankle cuffs together. I wear the cuffs to bed, I love the feel, the smell, the instant reminder when I wake up that I am His. Occasionally I will be told to click either the wrist or the ankle ones together..I prefer the ankle ones, it seems to be easier for me to get comfy and not struggle when I wake up. I was to leave them on until they were uncomfortable, or if I had to get up a few times...
This morning, Master's first question was how long did they last....my reply...all night and I slept better than I have in a while......."No surprise here"...was His reply.
Subtle dominance, even in my sleep.
Have a great week all..