Wednesday, September 5, 2012
I need some ideas,,HELP!
Warning...this ended up being on the long side....sorry!
My weigh in on Tuesday was plus 1/2.....Master simply said I will see you this morning...He had root canal scheduled for after lunch. I was a little concerned about the gain, but something else had me more concerned. I am supposed to get permission from Master before making any plans...appointments, time with friends, trips...I struggled at first with this one, but had settled in and realized, as usual, it was not as difficult as it first seemed. Master's goal is not to keep me from doing any of these things, but to remind my that i am His.
I had made plans for 2 trips....3 weeks each. The plans were made, and I had not mentioned it to Master yet. I meant to, but I just kept trying to get things settled , and trying to limit my time away before I spoke to Master. Then I realized, everything was set, except, Master had no idea. I had to let Him know....I drove myself a little crazy thinking about how to start in, what words to use, and then tried to just not think about it...yeah like that would work.
So, after Master and I hugged, I quickly said to Him we need to discuss something. He nodded and sat waitng. I told Him about the plans for the trips, why the timing was what it is, and why they both are 3 weeks away. I continued saying I was not all that happy about the time away, and I would struggle with missing Him, but it was the best I could come up with. I waited, and finally Master said, so everything is set and you have no permission....He knows how to cut to the chase. He reminded me that He would never tell me I could not spend time with my grandkids or family, but that asking permission is to help me keep the proper 'head space'...all of me belongs to Him. He asked how my upset I got myself thinking about this conversation and how it could have been easily avoided. He reminded me we are partners, He is there for me to lean on, and He could have helped and maybe suggested alternate plans. I replied I just felt like I had to straighten everything out before I mentioned it. There are lots of rewards to coming to submission later in life....but, for me, one of the difficulties, is realizing I don't have to do it all by myself is one that I still am getting used to.
Master told me to get naked and kneeling, and as He was pulling and pinching my nipples He reminded me of the above again. Then He had me go OTK and said it had been a long time since I had a hard paddling....really on some things He has a short memory....so I should settle in. He started lightly, but moved to medium to hard fairly quickly. He stopped after one set to remind me, He was being kind by giving me this warm-up. He then asked if I wanted maintenance first or my spanking for not asking for permission for my trips. As I was debating in my head....He announced maintenance would be last.
He starts in at the hard level and continues for one very long session. I am trying to stay still, and sort of manage, but I am becoming quite vocal. It reaches the point where the spanks and my bottom are all I can think about. Finally He stops, announces time for maintenance, gives me a quick rub, and tucks me in. He is going at it, fast and hard and I am trying to adjust. Just about the time when I think my bottom might be getting a little numb, He moves for the last 10 to my thighs,,,I am not longer staying still or quiet. When He is finished He asks if He has made His point. His fingers reach in and I am relaxing and enjoying and getting wetter, when He pulls out and reminds me....permissions are not granted when I have received a punishment.
He reminds me that He still expects a pound lost by Friday, any less than that will result in a basement visit, He tells me to stand, and since it has been a while since we have been in the basement we should go there and stir up some memories. I don't think it is necessary, but He grabs my hand and we are off to the basement. Once down there He asks if there are any pleasant memories floating in my head..I assure Him, there are none. He tells me if we return here on Friday...I will be striped from my bottom down my legs....my discomfort will be His pleasure.
We head back up, and Master announces He has a task for me., and if you are still reading this...this is where I really need some ideas. Master wants me to come up with a list of 10 ways we can stay connected while I am away. He wants it on Friday, and He wants new ideas...no calling and texting since that is already part of our daily routine. I thought about it last night, and am a long way from having 10 ideas...so anything you can suggest would greatly be appreciated! Thanks!
~ question # 8 is...Is spanking or corporal punishment part of your submission. Why/Why not?
Obviously the answer is YES....because it has been since the beginning and it is what we agreed to.